nireha

your every words have poisoned me. im dying right before your eyes. your slowly killing me. this pain wont leave. its a wound that wont heal. im fading away. from what was once real. this bleeding wont stop. this fear wont escape. will you miss me? do you even care? pain rising in my stomach. growing at a fast pace. feeling worse everyday. everything i once knew. i no longer reconize. am i just a stranger to you? would you ever expect this? open your eyes. look what you've done. i have you to blame. whats happening to me? is death only the beginning?

voices in my head. always angry. always screaming. telling me to do what i'll regret. saying im not good enough. shattering me like glass. everythings falling apart. pushing down on me. becoming so paranoid. fearing my shadow in the dark. haunting in my dreams. always watching me. judging everything i do. hating me for being alive. despising who i've become. trying to control this. locking me up tight. hoping i wont break free. secretly scared of me. running the other way. its just another day.

the sky has darkened. the night is gone. here im left. crying over you. dont forget me. even though your moving on. end my suffering. fight away my fears. take me back. say you love me. hold me close. keep me safe in your arms. stop the lies. tell me how you feel. stop pushing me away. out of your life. i feel like im drowning. all i see is your face. i reach out. please save me. you just leave me there. letting me sink deeper in. lost in despair. out of your sight. leaving me with nothing. except a broken hearted life.

Your the poison running through my veins. Your the antidote keeping me sane. Your the destruction collapsing down on me. Your the fears im forced to face. Your the addiction im dependent on. Your the intoxication im existing from. Your the narcotic inside of me.

Armor of glass Protecting your past Shattering with a single scratch Unable to go back Wishing for a new begining Forgotton dismay A hidden past Constantly running away Shards of glass Slicing into your skin Releasing the pain Always held with in As you leigh on your bed Regreting every sin The blood stains your sheets A constant relief Shield of glass Collapsing down on you Seperating the air from your lungs Until all of the sudden The pain is gone.

Docter, Docter Erase all my pain Prescribe me some medicine To keep me sane Docter, Docter I need an antidote To cure all my ways Of lost dreams and lost hope Docter, Docter Please make it go away This drilling in my head Wont seem to fade Docter, Docter Im growing in rage I need help right away This is not just a faze Docter, Docter Dont fail me now Im being held hostage I need help out

I'm made out of glass And I'm starting to break These scars are combining To form unbearable pain Your tearing me apart With every comment you make My breathing calms While every slit is made As I pick up the knife Memories flash through my mind Of all the anger I struggle to hold inside Streams of tears Flow down my cheeks As I scream in agony Yet no one hears me I'm a lifeless image Lost in the crowd Begging for forgiveness In exchange for a way out I'll sell my sole to the devil If thats what it takes To be immune to this pain And erase every mistake These cuts eventually fade But are replaced just the same Wakin

You cant run, You cant hide, As mirages slowly disguise, The dry dirt under your feet, As a replenishing lake, Fighting away the heat, Struggling to breathe, As you take a drink, The dirt swelling up your lungs, You stumble back, They're coming fast, With their machine guns, Fully loaded, Aiming towards you, Regardless of your innocence, You've lived here, You'll die here too, Terrorists surround your body, Disintegrating the line, Separating life and death, Your families already gone, You have nothing left, Surrender to them, It might save you a day, Don't dare fight back, You don't stand a chance anyway, Its all up

Call me stupid Call me ugly Call me anything Just never call me You I'll never be like you Sitting there Sniffing glue You call it an escape I call it Dying in shame Fading away From what was once Great I dont need to get high To feel alive When im sad I cry I dont get drunk And pass out for the day If this makes me weak Then so be it Offer all you want I'll never do that shit.